
It’s Been a Hard Year
It’s been a hard year at the Avery house. Amidst a myriad of blessings, sorrow has also crept in. Family members are unemployed, loved ones are ill, my migraines increase, and relief seems far away. And then as 2009 suddenly draws to a close, I look up and discover that unexpectedly Christmas is here.
So, I ponder as I am faced with a choice. Will I sit and rehearse the lingering pain? Like the grinch, will I stubbornly let it pass me all by?
Christmas, Already?
Typically, I love the holidays. The golden turkey rightly enthroned, vacuum-clogging tinsel covering the floor, gifts scattered artfully under the tree – I love it all. In fact, if you listen closely you can catch me humming, “Hark, the Herald…” twelve months out of twelve. Normally, Christmas is my favorite time of year.
But this year, life’s hardships put that all in doubt. Could it be that pastries and parties, tinsel and toys, Scripture and carols are only enjoyed in the sunshine of life?
So, as I pause and consider the questions I’ve asked, I am transported back to where it all began. Journal in hand, I decide to carve out a sacred space to consider the Christmas that began all Christmases, that very first one.
To Kim, With Love

That year, in a humble stable, there were a myriad of gifts artfully scattered under God’s tree. Incredibly, some even bore my name.
To: Kim, with love, From God.
Over the years, I’ve eagerly torn open many, discarded the manger-brown wrapping, and treasured each one.
God gives the best gifts, doesn’t He? They are the kind of gifts that keep on giving and giving. I’m reminded that in sorrow and in joy He always knows just what to do.
Suddenly, I realize Christmas is exactly what I need at the end of this 2009. So, the particular present I’ve decided to hug to myself through the rest of this shadowy year is that supreme gift, the gift of God, Emmanuel. God with us. God with Kim. Nothing could minister to me more.
God With Us
- When I wake up at 3:00 am, worries racing though my mind – He’s there.
- When I wake again, give in, and get up at 4:00 a.m. His smile lights my day.
- I read His Word; He speaks. It is good.
- As I work, His words of wisdom ring in my ear.
- As I persistently parent, He lights the way.
- As I seek to love, He flows through me.
- Then once again it’s dark, and I collapse in sleep. God joyously sings songs over me in the night.
- Time limps by until the clock once again reads 3:00 a.m. I hold my breath and discover that God is still there.
- Today, I will do it all again, but I am blissfully reminded that the “With-Us” God is always by my side.
Emmanuel – God with Kim. It’s the perfect gift.
Thank you, Jesus.
Merry Christmas to each and every one of you. May God’s presence be the joy of your life.
